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Sunday, March 6, 2016

Episode 77: Jasmine

Hey! Hello! Haven't been up and updating the blog for awhile.
My apologies, usually I'll said I'm busy, but this time round.. yea I'm busy.
Busy feeling happy. Why? Here's the story of.. how I met you.

-The Meeting-

I met you at my workplace, and you are wonderful.
Beautiful, lovely, nice, cute, sensitive.. and the list goes on.
Every single thing you do just puts a smile on my face.
Even when you frowns or sulk, which I feel a bit guilty to laugh at sometimes.
I know it sounds cliche, but that's how many love story starts right?
Falling in love with the person you saw for the first time, thinking she would be the one.
However that wasn't my first impression of you, I thought you were just another pretty girl.
Another girl whom I have no time to take notice of.
And indeed, I didn't have much time and you were gone before I could even get to know you.
The most I could get was your name, 'Jasmine'.
Many short stories would have stop here, and it will be labelled 'The one that got away'.
But fortunately, my story progress a bit further.
Just a bit, but this one small step became a giant leap for me.
So as I was saying, you were gone, and it seems like it's the end of it right?
Ironically, the end is the start; the end of you and me, and the start of us.
I always believed in fate, and this seems to be another one of fate's little act.
Turn out to be, fate's little act is the highlight of my life's play.
On that very day you were leaving, I don't know what happened.
Or what brought us together, whether is it the chocolate, bus, or pillow, I have no idea.
But I'm starting to guess it's none of these material things.
It's something more spiritual and special.; it's you and me that has attracted each other.
It's dumb, silly, magical and mysterious at the same.
How we could get close and start liking each other, by the most detached way of communication, SMS.
Just like a school boy who had a crush on a girl, I just tried to make you smile in my.. admittedly lame texts.
However, I feel that you didn't even have to try, whatever you sent, it just puts a silly smile on my face
It's with every text I sent and received, that my feelings grow.
So when the chance came, when we get to meet, I was really excited, nervous and helpless simultaneously.
Knowing myself, I was afraid I'll screw things up.
But nothing went wrong, and it couldn't have went more perfect.
We just clicked like two bubbles in the skies; they just merged into one.
Bubbles are always shaped in perfect circles, and it just felt that way when I'm with you.

-That Day-

Then the time comes, the time to pop the question, because it was now or never, it could have been our last meeting.
Our last meeting as friend and my first time asking the question and I was not convinced at all.
Even on my way to meeting you, I'm still nervous and unsure.
Headsets in my ears, looking for comfort from the radio station.
And surprisingly it came, the station announce that today is the first ever international happiness day, March 20th.
It was incredible, as if a supernatural force is giving me the sign.
The sign that I would end up taking and taking it gladly.
My confidence grew. 'It's a relationship that even the world approves', I told myself.
And so we met, we had dinner at Paya Lebar, Astons, still one of our favorites go to place,
Dinner was great as usual, the bubble still floating in the air, simple and pretty.
I said I was confident but as the end of the day, and we are about the part ways. My confidence was parting me as well.
I still couldn't pop the question, I was afraid I'll end up popping the bubble.
So I waited, dragged and delayed, savoring every moment we get to be together, wishing it won't be the last.
Until the very last moment, when your train came and you had to go.
I muster all my courage, a lot of courage, and held your hand.
"Don't go" I said.
I remember the look on your face, puzzled, maybe a bit of hopefulness, but I might be just imagining.
"Why?" you asked.
I was not prepared, in fact I was so nervous, I couldn't remember what I said, but I managed to stop you from going, and that was enough.
We found a seat on the platform and we talked. About our future, our present now.
It all went pass so quickly, and the only thing that told me that it wasn't quick was the number of trains that passed by.
We just kept talking, and moment that I remember the clearest was you suddenly leaning onto my shoulders and I just kept quiet and you said, you wanted to know how it feels like lean on me.
That was the most romantic thing that ever happened to me, and no matter how hard I try to beat that on our valentines' day, birthdays or anniversary, I could never do it.
But I knew it was more that just sweetness and romance that day, you have your concern and I tried to ensure you that all will work out.
At the very end, it seems nothing was confirmed, but I knew, I knew we would be together.
Before you left, I gave you a peck on the cheek, and that was the first time I kissed a girl.
And that was it, all that happened was now the past, we are together now and that's all that matters, at least to me.

-Us Thus Far-

However lovely a love story may seem, it is never fully true.
Every relationship has its problems and hardship, and we have a fair share of that as well.
In ours, we had to be separated countless time, in OCS, in AFTC and now in USAFA.
There are other problems that we faced in the early stages too, but to me they don't matter anymore.
I'm really guilty that I'm always the one leaving, but I really believe I had to, to ensure us a better future.
As a couple, we discussed and make decision and I'm really thankful for your support.
Without you, I definitely won't be in USAFA today, although you may have regret that hahas.
I'm not gonna lie, there are definitely times when we are unhappy, but that's because we are only human.
But for me, it's the times when we are happy that counts, the feeling that you give me.
Thus, I always try to reciprocate and make you feel that feeling, love.
I really hope you could remember those times too, valentines day, birthday, anniversary, surprises, memories with Cherrie and Mochi, casual day out, gathering with our families, other little things.
If only we have written those in a diary, I'm sure it would be one of the best love story ever.
Today, is your birthday and I want you to feel love too, but it's not easy for me to do it from where I am, so I hope that what I wrote here, could make you feel it.
You always say that I don't say I miss you enough. I do, I just don't want you to know my struggle and make you worry, that's the feeling I want you to feel. Thus, if you recap, I do say I love you a lot, because that's what i want you to feel.
I promised I will make it back to you for missing valentines, your birthday and our anniversary okay?
I always keep my promises right, although I can be lazy and procrastinating.
To be honest, there so much more in our story I could elaborate so much things I could say but somethings are more beautiful if left unsaid, and that how I should let it be.
There's definitely more that 3 sections to what we share, but they shall be kept between us.
But I still have that same 3 words for you though, 'I love you." and "I really do"
However, today I do have another 3 words, and you prolly could guess it, "Happy Birthday Yays!"
Yea... that yays is kinda awkwardly inserted because I realised it's just 2 words.
May all you wishes come true and look forward to seeing you in US and back in SG!
And if you wanna hear it, I'll say it here, "I miss you so much, OMG TT_TT"
Also I dedicated my episode 77 to you, cause 7 its our favorite number and that is the reason why I stopped blogging for so long, so I could use this special episode number to do something special for us. I love you so much Jasmine Ng Hui Ling!

Best Wishes,
Gibson Lin

Santa was here @ 2:35 PM