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Sunday, December 2, 2012

Episode 71: Reason to not die.

Hey! Time outside Tekong is so precious, I can't believe I'm spending some of it to blog.
Anyway, let me start with a song. An army song which lyrics I changed.
But before that let me show you a picture!

Found this picture, can you make up what word they are trying to form? ='0

Today is book-in day, I am so depressed ah~
Tomorrow is field camp day, depress depressing ah~
Book-in day! Field day!
I am Lin Wei Xiang Gibson from Ulysses Company ah~!

That pretty much sums up how I am feeling right now..
Anyway, I've been in the army for around 1 month.
The experience is really unique, there are many things that you will never be able to try it somewhere else.
Like throwing a grenade, shooting a rifle, putting green and black paint on your face and hide behind a tree.
It's really god damn tiring all the time, but next day, you will think back and feel that it's rather fun.
I also get to meet a lot of new friends and share a lot of funny moments together.
You learn a lot from your sergeant, although they are just 1 or 2 years older than you.
For me, there are few things that they have said that make me contemplate hard and attempt to change myself.
They are actually very simple sentences, but its the circumstances and the shaqness you're feeling that makes the words strong when you hears it.

"Wake up your fucking idea, and throw away your civilian mindset, stop being selfish."

"In army and in life too, you have to learn to accept different people."

Other things that they always say are.. "Listen, don't blur!", "Don't act blur live longer!"

It makes me realise that the way everyone acts outside is selfish.
We only help ourselves and people we care. Why can't we just care for everyone?
Well we can't, because we are not raised to be like this. I am no different.
But in the army, we can't be like this.
Our goal is to protect the country, so every soldier is vital for winning the war.
And every civilian is of utmost importance, as they are who we are protecting.
For every action you do in the army, your should not be thinking about yourself.
You should not be thinking that doing this will increase my chance of being officer and then do it.
You must do the right thing that will be most effective and beneficial to the whole company.
By doing that, you show your leadership skills too.
I myself can't say I've achieve that.
There are many times, I think back of the things I did, and feel I could have done better if I wasn't selfish.

I wonder if you have watched "Ah Boys To Men".

It's a good movie, and an exact depiction of life in BMTC.
I think the movie itself have changed my view about army, especially the first 20mins of the movie.
Where they showed Singapore getting attacked by enemy forces.
I started thinking, if we act like how we usually act and move like how we usually move. We'll die.
Many people will die. Just like a quote from another Jack Neo movie, "You die, I die, everybody die!".
So the book-in after I watched the movie, I tried harder in every activity I participated it. True story.

Anyway that's pretty much for my army talk.
Now let's talk about life outside army, like now.
It's really a very big change.
If I were to have a girlfriend, she would be real lucky.
Saturday and Sunday, I would shower her with love.. or money..
The only downside is that I won't be there for her on weekdays.
I don't drive, but I can send a cab to her place then all around Singapore before stopping at our meeting place.
I take cab more than bus now, cause I have money but no time.
I learn how to do shopping, and how I've been doing it wrongly last time.
First stop before you go anyway should be the basement, buy all the snacks that can last your whole journey before you set off.
I like to spend more time with my family now.
I watched the "Ah Boys To Men" with them, and I wish I can catch another movie together after field camp, cause my DAD couldn't make it the other time.
It's funny how I only get $480 every month and feel so rich.
Actually I get less than that, as I've applied for 8 years Safra membership, donate to Share $7/month and have a $32/month insurance in case I die in field camp.

So yea, field camp is like BMTC hell week. (sorry I have to talk about army again)
It's the place where recruits have the highest chance of dying.
But I have a reason to not die.
The reason is you, my friends and my family.
I want to enjoy my book-out with you guys.
It's when you lost the precious things in your life for that 5 days, that you realise how much you want to cherish it within the 2 days.
I also realised that when someone means a lot to you, what you share with him/her is very special.
You can't find many people to share that bond, so when you find it you should cherish it.
And don't break it off because of some blunder or wrongdoing, because what you guys have is a lot larger.
Larger than the explosion the matador or SFG 87 can make and larger than life.

"Larger Than Life" by "Backstreet Boys", skip to 1min mark, if you want to listen to the song immediately.

So yea! All you people can you see? Can't you see?
You're larger than my life itself. So be alive, be happy and be together.
I hope I'll miraculously blog again sometime soon.
Till then, good by and in case I don't see you, good morning, good afternoon and 9 9. =')

PS: Mixpod got shut down. No songs for the time being. ='(

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I don't know how it feels to be in a relationship, but I know how it feels when my friends are in one, and they are happy. I hope they are happy like this forever, so please let the people who love each other be together and happy.

Perfect relationship is when two people never give up one another, so I guess a perfect field camp is when you don't give up on yourself or any mates.

Santa was here @ 6:38 PM