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Friday, August 12, 2011

Episode 59: Live life, have fun.

Hey! I'm like super bored now and totally don't feel like using the computer, except it's the only thing I could do.
Well, of course I could meditate and think. But it really doesn't workout, trust me, I've tried. I meant meditating.
Thinking is always an on-going thing for me. My brain never stop talking to me.
Except today he (How do I know he is a he? He has to be one, else I'll think like a girl. I don't right? Do I?) is especially annoying and kept saying, 'I'm bored! I'm bored! I'm bored!'
Well of course, I could easily shut him up with studying. But I really don't feel like doing it.
Maybe because a small test was just over and I didn't exactly do well for it, so I'm not motivated
Or maybe because I've been studying for the past 3 days and I wanted out. Rest.

The problem is I'm not even doing the resting correctly.
Well, resting should have been sleeping through the whole day, or at least half the day. I didn't do either plus, I'm blogging now which means I'm gonna end up sleeping rather late. Shyt~
Or it could be going out and have some fun to unwind yourself. But I didn't do that too, I did went out to get lunch today, it wasn't fun. Really wasn't, I'm not anhedonic.
What I did was just sitting in front of the computer all day to feel un-rested.

Hmmm... Actually I have done that before many times last time, but it just didn't feel right this time.
Today is one of those days, where nothing happened but I just feel that everything is wrong.
Why? I don't know why. That's why I'm up blogging about it, hoping to gain some enlightenment, but it's still not working.

Could be this loneliness? ROFL, I'm not feeling desperate, just trying to find the truth to this frustration today.
Well, of course there is MSN where I could talk to anyone to try to feel that... 'someone is there' feeling?
But I'm not the socialist who just clicks anyone's name and say 'Hey!'.
Actually when I say that I got no idea what socialist mean. I'm just trying to mean someone who like to socialise a lot.
So when I talk to you without requesting anything (Except requesting you to talk to me.), know that you are special please.
Unfortunately, today these special people are offline or kinda busy now, giving me 1 or 2 words reply like Haha and Ha Ha.

So I think we can call this a bad day, so that I can at least share a music video with you guys.
Yea, that music video is called 'Bad day' by 'Daniel Powter'.
Have I shared this before? I have a feeling I did, but I hope I didn't because that must mean my life sucks alot.

Damn Youtube.

Alright, that didn't particularly made my day better, didn't expected it too though.
Wow, this feeling is so frustrating. I cannot continue like this, let me have a shower first, hopefully I come back invigorated and blog happily.
Although this is unlikely unless 5 cute little cats jumped out of nowhere into the shower and... not hurt me.
I'm a cat person. You may not be interested. But I'm interested if you're a cat or dog person, so you can tell me in the tagbox? Which I know you won't, so why am I even asking for it. Oh gosh! Shower.

Alright, I'm back. Now with disappointment that there's no 5 cats from nowhere. Not even 1.
Well but there is a lizard in the bathroom. KEN is afraid of lizard. He didn't tell me that it's a secret, so I guess I can just share it casually on the blog. LOS!

Found this on the internet, so that I don't feel so disappointed. SO CUTE... and whether santa is real or not doesn't matter. You are real and you live on. I'm real and I'm santa-man.

So yea, shower didn't exactly make me feel any better...
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BUT! Was SMSing with KEN, and that made me feel a bit better. Just a little bit. =')
So what? Should I continue this depressing blogging style? Or should I just publish post and go to sleep.
Well, actually I won't go to sleep. I'll just stay up feeling frustrated about the situation, which is staying up.

Maybe I can share something good that happened, so that it isn't that depressing anymore.
Hmmm... Okays nothing good happened...
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NOT!
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YES!
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BUT! I did find a good show to watch recently. It's called 'How I met your mother.'
Really brilliant! Hahas, I really love these comedies. That and 'Big Bang Theory'.
They're so GOOD! 'Glee' is good too, but 'Big Bang Theory' and 'How I met your mother.' is way better! How way? Way way. No offense to 'Glee' fans, please stay gleeful.

Also, 2 things I learned from watching 'How I met your mother'.

1) I need a friend like Barney. If I have someone like that, I won't be feeling like this today. I need someone to tell me to stop thinking and tell me to start doing. I want someone who wants me to say he is my best friend. That's really cool. I love Barney. Does that sound gay? It either sound gay or childish because people will think that it means Barney the purple dinosaur. But either way, idgaf. So here's a picture of my favorite character in the show. Actually I'm not sure if he's my favorite character, Ted is like my idol too, he is so crazy. Anyway, it's either him or Ted, so just know that.

Wow! This is totally how a motivational poster should be. I think I'm gonna stop being sad and be awesome instead. But how? Anyway it's still awesome! Los! Anyway I'm not sad in the first place, I'm just frustrated?

And this is totally how a motivational poster should not be. But you got to admit the barney in this picture is kinda cool... if it is not purple in color.

2) So 'How I met you mother' talks about this guy Ted, what happened to his life starting from when he is 27 years old until he met his wife. It's called how I met your mother, because he is telling this life story of his to his children. And the story is really happening. So I've made up my mind that life begins at 27. So I can sleep through 8 years before I start enjoying it, or I should say, I can still slack off 6 years and the other 2 years will be used by the government. This is good news, because it's telling me whatever shyt I'm going through now, or will be going through doesn't matter, because my life haven't started yet. Now I really feel better. Thanks... mother? So here's a picture to show my appreciation to the show.

Gosh! They are like in the bar everyday and having so much fun. More importantly, they are all 27 and above. I think so, at least Ted is.

Anyway, tomorrow, or I should say today since it's pass 12am, COLL is going out to celebrate KEN's birthday 3 days in advance.
Supposedly going to Malaysia, but JUL couldn't get his passport, so we're not going.
Partly my fault since I'm the planner. I know KEN is very disappointed, so am I. So super sorry. ='(
But who said we can't have the same level of fun locally? We really can't...
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BUT! It doesn't matter as long as we are together right? Hahas! Let's rock the night tomorrow! How? We'll decide how tomorrow.
Hahas! Since the cancel was so last minute, Plan B is no plan at all.
I did some research on where to eat, so food shouldn't be a problem. We'll make it work anyway. Trust me! ='D

It's getting really late now, I think I should go. Didn't really get any enlightenment, but really did feel better.
Blogging is so amazing, couldn't understand why isn't more people doing it?
Maybe they are too busy doing things that are cooler and more fun than blogging, and that makes me a loser. Which idgaf. Hahas!
Today's BTTOTDHY is abit special. There's an animation. Cool arhs? My life is shyt. But my blog is the shyt. Just kidding. I'm referring to the latter.

By by~ Xia~ 9 9~ =')

PS: ALEX asked me to poker, great. I can finally stop thinking, and start thinking poker. Alright make no sense.

PPS: New songs on the playlist, please check them out, although you prolly already did. Just saying in case you didn't noticed it. The highlight is called 'Rule the world' by 'Take that'! It's the all time favorite seriously. Not mine, MP's, but I find it really naise. Thanks for sharing. Alright, just hope you like it. =')

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I want a late night adventure. I want someone to call me up and say, “i’m outside. let’s go do something!”. Maybe ride around. go to a park and just swing on the swings. Maybe sit in the grass and watch the stars or maybe go to a 24 hour food place and pig out. I just want a late night adventure with people I like to be around. No drama. Nothing but good vibes and good company.

Live life, have fun. Like fcuk? How do I do that?

Santa was here @ 8:46 AM